Where We Belong

The word wilderness derives from the notion of "wildness"—in other words, that which is not controllable by humans.

With our constant growing population and need for more living space, the idea of wilderness has become endangered. It has become the goal of many activists and foundations to preserve what few wild places are left in our country. 

The wilderness is a hard place. A hard place, but also a beautiful place. There is so much to discover when you are alone in the wilderness, whether it be in the wilderness of nature or the wilderness of the heart. God meets us in these places. In these quiet, undisturbed places of life. 

"That which is not controllable by humans," isn't that where we are? Where we belong? A place not controlled by us but by God… So often in the Bible, people are sent into the wilderness to sacrifice to God, to meet with Him, to learn and grow in their relationship with Him. The wilderness is a powerful, heart-wrenching, life-changing place.

Molded and Hopeless

I'm afraid to run away, and I'm afraid to stay. I'm afraid to let go, and afraid to hold on. I'm paralyzed. My joy is falling apart around me and I'm frozen. Standing, watching, holding my breathe. Fear is all I can manage, all I have left. If I hold my breathe long enough, there won't be a choice to make...

OPEN YOUR EYES!

It doesn't have to be like this. Don't let go of the joy, don't run away from it. Let go of yourself, let loose your heart. There's nothing left to lose. No love, no self respect. You have wings, yet you slither in the dust. Hold on to your dream. Bare your soul, standing naked before the rising sun.

I've lost my footing. There's no one there to pull me up. My sturdy rock has rotted under my stench. This stifling, mildew filled air encased in every fiber of my being. Building up with every hidden piece of myself. Eating away my flesh until there's nothing left.

I have nothing left.